Feeling amazed

So I've finally finished and scanned in Z's pics as best I can. I'm surprised and happy with the results.

Z's dad was here today and made a comment about me only just discovering I could do this, that something had opened or tuned in the right channel in me, and that felt so true it stunned me a bit to hear it.

The pictures are here on my wall and every time I look at them I'm surprised...can't quite believe that I did them...I'm craving all day to get back to drawing! It's all quite new and strange.

Need a bigger scanner though!...and I'd like a pencil roll...so I'm going to try and make one, I think.

Our little one, who is sleeping like this at the moment, sprained his wrist today...little bandages are really sad and really sweet.

Drawing every moment.

I'm stopping by to say Hi and show you what I've been doing instead of getting to the computer for the last few days! I'm amazed at what can be acheived with a few pencils and A LOT of patience.
The picture above is a section of a work in progress, and the one below a section of a finished one, and I'm going to do a third of the same little girl. You can click and enlarge them if you view them on my blogspot: http://sisterjulia.blogspot.com/
Big kisses

Trusting the Sea

It's a week since I've written.


Not entirely true, it's a week since I posted anything I wrote!


I feel like a changing sea at the moment...no thread to follow, other than the desire to draw, just waves, tides and winds of change.


I'm walking every day, even if it's only for five minutes...I think it gives me a more linear sense of movement at least briefly.


That's it...I don't feel as though I'm making progress...just as though I'm treading water, feeling the immense weight of the sea pushing me about. Though, in a quiet, lulling and supportive way.


So in fact, even if I'm not swimming in a direction and I can't see any shore to orient myself, I'm still travelling, still have a sense that I'm going to gradually find myself somewhere else, only at the discretion of the sea.


I trust the sea.

Busy Easter!

...Busy, my head is spinning

Like a whirlpool it's neverending!

Life is a little like driving a team of huskies that all want to go different directions at the moment!

Time for a little less direction possibly.

Lots of drawing this week...including another portrait attempt (why can't I let this go?)..so that's what is coming up today.

Hope you had an excellent and Happy Easter.

Big kisses

I'm not sure

I'm not sure why I have disappeared, and it could be another week or so before I'm back.

Photobucket has a cool new editing tool.

If you get grumpy http://www.netdisaster.com/ , you can harmlessly blast your way through any site you fancy....planting the flowers returns my sense of calm.

Hugs and kisses.

Portraits!!

Portraits are enticing and exasperating...I want to capture, and communicate, and show this amazing beauty...and I feel like I'm making wobbly, wonky muddy drab smudges...as to how anyone does this for pleasure I'm a touch unsure.

Mind you it's pleasurable to start, sometimes, and sometimes in the middle...but the ending is yukky!

And I had more fun with the pencils...so perhaps they are just more my medium...it's so interesting just finding stuff out about how to create...I've never tried to achieve likenesses before...

And it is soooo lovely honouring the art...finding more respect for and studying and practicing...amazing and lovely.

I have to have one more play with the pastels, to have a go at scenery, some of the things people did in class were so vibrant and colourful...

Never done scenery before for it's own sake...so it feels weird...

This kind of picture has a value that I didn't understand before...I've always wondered why try to copy something so beautiful? Paint and paper can never be as delicate, as brilliant, as numinous as nature and light are, but finally I find myself looking at what I've drawn, with it's limitations (and mine) and thinking, "well I like it as a picture."

I'm wondering how all this will work out, how art through me will change? it feels exciting...

Oh and I have felt completely well for days and days...I feel normal, I'm enjoying normal...Jan to March always used to be a busy, push myself time of year...spring and my Birthday on their way...but I realised this week that the last three years these have been my lowest months...hmmm lessons anyone?!

I'm off to enjoy, normal, average and mediocre it's wonderfully freeing.

Big Sunshine Wishes.

zhausted

So this is the picture I've been working on today (in the middle of everything else)...still see problems, but am happy with the things I've learnt as well.

oh my, oh. my, oh my!

Had enough of falling ill now!...last year managed to avoid every
cold going ....this year can't seem to escape anything! ...hmm and my keyboard is playing up, don't be overly surprised by missing letters!


So I've lost days again over silly trifling little bugs...feeling great today though... hopefuly all is back to normal.

I'm out of touch with everythng...except for with my sister...who is moving to the end of my road in less than two weeks!!! Oh my! again.

So today I shall continue to put my house in order...hoping to keep space for drawing as well...and then cleanse/smoke/clear all the silly trifling little bugs right out of it! We're going to be too busy the rest of the year to be ill.

Hope to post later with new artwork.

Big Kiss