Friday, 27 March 2009


I am suddenly very aware that I am threatened. That I have been feeling under threat since moving back to the south of England, to it's high cost of living, rents four times those of where I was, house prices easily four times as high and salaries really not so.

I felt threatened and uneasy, worried about providing for and protecting my family even before I found myself pregnant little more than a month after we moved here.

This fear has manifest itself in a lot of growling on my part...a lot of barking and snapping and trying to keep everything in line and under control at has also raised a lot of hopeful dreams in me about community, sharing, gifting, sustainability and an opening up of us as human beings.

Those are my dreams, my wishful thinking...though I think I do it with quite a practical mind that sees these paths as logical helpful steps for us and those around us...I believe these doors are opening wide and full of amazing opportunities for growth and connection.

Guess what!?...I'm de-cluttering! Lol!!! What is it in me that makes me respond to threat of lack with such a strong sensation of paring down?

Mmmmm, Letting go I guess, needing space to allow change, having nothing left to be convinced I should be afraid of losing...what you are used to is just what you are used to.

Huge Love

Sunday, 22 March 2009

Flowers in the Garden

Saturday, 21 March 2009


I open myself up to
That bed of delight
The comfort of knowing
That all will be right;
I see in this ocean
All beauty, no form...
Understand ultimately
There can be no wrong.

Friday, 13 March 2009


Pretty much how I'm feeling at the moment! Took me a few minutes to find a couple of pictures to show how I feel, and these are definitely them! The joyous exhilarating freedom you feel at the 'I'm almost flying' point in any leap...The surge of love and pride you have watching your partner play with your kids...the sunny peaceful warmth you feel when you get to enjoy an afternoon walk by yourself, just to breathe it all in.

I think the blue skies in these pictures must hold a lot of it too...and now I've typed that it reminds me of being 'told' by one of my gorgeous guides, to let my 'blue pour forwards' only in my hand written journal it came out looking like 'for words' and it was the day I learnt about communication being Communion In Action.

Today I finally got to listen all the way through to Jennifer McLean's 'Healing with the Masters' talk with Sonia Choquette... Which I'm very sorry to say you may have missed the freebie access to by now...BUT!! the Healing With The Masters Series is just kicking off and all the time I've spent listening so far has left me feeling like these pink flowers basking in the sun and reaching for the sky!

The perfect antidote for all the gloom spreaders, nay sayers, and scare mongers that may be pulling at your ear and you may find just the seed, just the spark, to release you from something long overdue...I did.

Big Kiss

Monday, 9 March 2009

Naked Juicyness

I was reminded of this somewhere yesterday:

Before enlightenment; chop wood, carry water.
After enlightenment; chop wood, carry water.

Loving that today.

And liked this little bit of my DMP:

Embrace the Juicyness of today~that juicyness is messy and refreshing~Juice can ruin the clothes you normally pays to be naked in your juicyness.

Big Kisses


There is some truth
Which was covered and dulled
Not quite denied
Not quite embraced
Didn't feel Loved.

Now it is Love
Singing in ecstatic veins
Jangling the sun
Dancing in Bright Rays

I am free as air
Clear as sight
Happily Lost in our Love.